The time has come, the Walrus said.....
......to say Adios, Ciao, Auf Wiedersehen, Sayonara, Adeu, etc, etc
Well the time has come, the Walrus said, to step back a little. To look behind yourself and see how far you have come. To see what, if anything you have achieved.
In my case I have, I think, achieved quite a lot. However, that is simply not good enough. I have not come as far as I wanted to at the beginning.
Four months ago the biggest challenge ever came into my life in the form of the corona virus. My habitual work at that time was teaching and live performance as a singer songwriter musician. I lost both of those means of earning living overnight. To make matters worse I became quite seriously ill. Worse still I was being refused treatment on the basis that my illness wasn’t the corona virus.
Imprisoned, seriously ill in my small apartment in the south of Spain, with no money to pay my bills nor even feed myself, denied medical treatment and forbidden to leave my small den due to the lockdown, I had no option but to leave the country.
When I arrived in Japan I was a complete mess. It was a seventy two hour journey without sleep and in chronic pain. I was broke and broken.
The road to recovery
In all I spent about five painful weeks in quarantine in both Spain and Japan. The difference was the Japanese helped me. I finally got to see an excellent doctor and in no time at all I was on the road to recovery.
I must also pay due respect to my lovely Japanese wife who expertly nursed me back to health with love and tender kindness I had not seen since I was a small child. In my opinion the woman saved my life for which I shall be eternally grateful.
And so here I am, four months on and enjoying full health. Throughout April, May, June and July I have been very very busy trying to get some sort of paying work to ease the financial burden on my wife and to regain my financial independence. Alas it has all been to no avail, at least in the economic sense. Despite four months hard work I have been paid the grand total of just 0.33 cents, less than a bowl of rice ! That is simply just not good enough. My wife has been more than patient far beyond what any spouse could reasonably ask or expect.
I spoke in a previous article about focusing on process and/or results. My own focus of attention these past four months has been on process, to the detriment of results. That I’m afraid has to change.
Giving up on slavery to a dream
And so it is for these reasons I am taking a sabbatical from Medium. I have submitted, or published, seventy six articles and not a single one has been curated. That means one of two things, my writing is crap or I’m not getting a fair crack of the whip. Whichever it is, the important thing is the results, they just are not there. And because of this I simply cannot justify to myself, nor my long suffering wife, continuing in this way. She at least, deserves better from me.
I shall leave my articles up for the time being. And in better days I may be tempted back, but in the meantime I really must dedicate more time to getting results, if not on Medium or at writing, then somewhere else doing something else. Anything less than this decision would be selfish and thoughtless in the extreme.
I would like to thank my fans and followers, people like Danny Oaks who has been a great source of help and support. Thank you Danny, you’re a good man.
Hopefully I can come back at some point in the future, but for now I must bid you all farewell. Be safe, keep well and may the sun be forever in your lives.
Don't forget your raincoats fellas
PS To all those Linkedin Spanish journalists in Seville who spookily follow me everywhere I go, fellas, I guess you will have to find some other subject to focus your attention on and fill your otherwise dreary hours. Don't forget your raincoats huh.